I am Healthy. I am Strong. I am Ready.

The week before this 1/2 marathon has been really hard.  I should be resting, but all I want to do is run.  I know it sounds strange, but once you get in a pattern, it is really hard to stop yourself from wanting to exercise.  I have had to force myself to do less so I can do more on Saturday.

This morning I woke up feeling awful, with a terrible headache.  All I could think of was, "Really?  Today?  This week?"  I tried to push through the day at work, but it got unbearable in the afternoon and I left work a little early to rest, knowing I had my last track workout tonight.  On my drive home, I began to think about what my running buddy Terri always reminds us on our runs.  She says us to say things in a positive way to our bodies.  So instead of saying, "I won't get sick," say, "I am healthy."  I tried it.  On the way home, I repeated, "I am healthy.  I am strong.  I am ready."  When I got home I slept for a few hours with those words on my mind.  I woke up 2.5 hours later feeling fantastic!  Thanks for the positive thinking Terri!!!

I headed to the track to run my last few miles at race pace.  It was great.  My legs felt refreshed and ready to go.  Not only was I at running race pace, I was running faster than race pace!  I did 4 miles including a warm-up and cool down.  I am feeling stronger than ever and I am ready to RACE on Saturday.  After track, my running buddies and I went to carb load at Flippin' Pizza down the street.  It was a great way to celebrate an amazing season!

Mile 1: 8:50

Mile 2: 8:45

Mile 3: 8:51

Mile 4: 9:35

Average Pace: 9:00

Getting Flippin' Pizza with my sister Jodi!

After our last winter 2012 track workout!

Some of the most amazing runners and people I know!

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE RACING THIS WEEKEND!!!

I AM HEALTHY!  I AM STRONG! I AM READY TO ROCK 'N ROLL 13.1 MILES IN DC THIS WEEKEND!!!

8 Miles - Ready to Rock 'n Roll!

This morning I did my last long run.  It was 8 miles, first 4 easy, last 4 race pace.  I felt good for every mile except mile 5, when my chest started to feel tight.  I took a rest, then kept going.  I was really happy with how the run went and I feel like I am ready for the half next weekend!  Bring it 13.1...I am ready for you :)

Mile 1 - 9:39
Mile 2 - 9:44
Mile 3 - 9:44
Mile 4 - 9:24
Mile 5 - 9:15
Mile 6 - 9:00
Mile 7 - 9:09
Mile 8 - 9:13
Total - 1:15:10
Average Pace - 9:24

Race Report - Reston 10 miler

I know this may be a few days late, but better late than never.  On Sunday, I woke up after only 5 hours of sleep, feeling pretty exhausted, but determined to run a strong race.  I was headed to South Lakes High School to run Reston 10 Miler with my friends Terri and Brooke.  We normally run together during our Saturday long runs and we all have the same goal for the half coming up, so we were excited about this race just 2 weeks before our big run.

As the race started I was still running back from the bathroom, but right after crossing the start line, I caught up with them and we were on our way.  We had a great plan, to keep a consistent pace for the first few miles and then about every 2 miles kick it up a bit until we got to our race pace.  We all did a great job of having nice conversation, keeping to our plan, and sticking together.  Around mile 7 I looked around and I couldn't find either of them.  I was so confused because I thought we had stuck together.  As it turned out all three of us had gotten in the groove and I had totally dazed out.  I was running a 10 minute mile!  It has been a while that I have run at that pace in a race so it really surprised me.  Anyway, I picked up the pace and saw Brooke and Terri about a tenth of a mile ahead of me, but at that point we were all keeping a good distance and pace so I ran the last 3 miles by myself.  It took me a while to get back in the groove after slowing down.  It was a great race despite the fact that I got lost in my running.  I finished in 1:35:23.  A PR by over 4 mins!  I was so happy!  A great race with great friends...what better way to start a Sunday?

Here's the break down:
Mile 1 - 9:59
Mile 2 - 9:49
Mile 3 - 9:42
Mile 4 - 9:30
Mile 5 - 9:14
Mile 6 - 9:18
Mile 7 - 10:00
Mile 8 - 9:32
Mile 9 - 9:25
Mile 10 - 8:50
Time: 1:35:23
Average Pace: 9:30

After the race

Strongest Run On Record

This morning as I woke up after a refreshing and much needed 9 hours of sleep, I felt ready to run.  My quads were sore from Thursday nights kettlebell class, but I was looking forward to a nice, easy run.  I knew it would be tough because although it was 37 degrees outside, the wind was blowing strong with up to 40 mile an hour gusts.

When I got to our meet up at Potomac River Running Store the wind was still strong and not letting up, but 20 mins later as we started to walk down to the trailhead, well it was snowing.  My running buddy, Brooke and I were not expected that.  We were pretty excited as we started our run so we had to document it:

Definitely windy, but can you see the snow???

It was a tough beginning to our run.  We were cold, no hats, not many layers, and only she had gloves, but we wanted to get this 14 mile run done with.  Our plan was to keep it nice and easy, but strong.  We started running West toward Leesburg and the wind hit us every step, but we pushed on.  It took us a few miles to get into our run, running the first three miles at 10:03, 10:05, and 9:58.  The longer we ran, the stronger we got.  We had to remind each other that this was supposed to be an easy run, not a run that is pushing race pace.  As we ran, we talked about life and some personal things that really meant a lot.  She has not just become a running partner, but a good friend that I come to value and cherish, especially her advice and support during our long runs.  While we ran we began to reflect on our past runs and about how a few months ago we would have never imagined running this pace.  We were feeling great, the sun was starting to shine, but we still had the wind in our face!

When we got to out turnaround point at 7 miles we took a break and waited while our two other friends, Jeff and Russell, met up with us.  The four of us decided to run the last 7 miles together.  As we began our run back we wanted to the it easy so we decided that we needed to remind ourselves not to run too fast, even though we knew the wind would push us a bit.  We kept an even pace until we got to 11 miles.  At that point we all felt really strong and stopped reminding each other to slow down.  As we approached mile 12, I said, "I think I am going to slow down for the last 2."  Brooke turned to me and said,"I'm not going to let you, you can do this."  She was right, why did I need to slow down when I was feeling so great?  I continued to run at a pace that felt good, but not too fast for the last few miles.  During the last mile, there are 3 hills that I always dread, but with my 3 friends by my side they helped me push through and we finished strong.  I am so proud of all of us.  We all did an amazing job!

Directly after our run!

A few minutes later, back at the store...we rock!

We ran strong...here's the break down:

Mile 1 - 10:03

Mile 2 - 10:05

Mile 3 - 9:58

Mile 4 - 9:31

Mile 5 - 9:48

Mile 6 - 9:41

Mile 7 - 9:44

Mile 8 - 9:39

Mile 9 - 9:45

Mile 10 - 9:43

Mile 11 - 9:49

Mile 12 - 9:25

Mile 13 - 9:15

Mile 14 - 9:22

Time- 2:15:52

Average Pace - 9:40

As a reward and a much needed purchase, I bought a new pair of running shoes.  I love them!  They are the Asics Gel-Kayano 18.  They feel lighter and I'm looking forward to breaking them in over the next few weeks before the race.

My new running shoes!

After this run there are a few numbers to share:

33.5 = miles this week

106.3 = miles so far this month

210.45 = miles so far this year...I know I'll not only make my goal of a 1,000 miles this year, but I will be exceeding it!

What a great run!  I walked away from today feeling as though this is my strongest run to date.  I am looking forward to continuing my improvement!

Kettlebell Class

Over the last few years I have learned to love running as much as I used to hate it, which was a lot.  When I went to the gym, I was the person who avoided the treadmill at all cost.  I would get my cardio on the elliptical or the bike, but NEVER the treadmill.  I would always be sure to get some weights in as well by using the machines and for about a year I worked with a personal trainer one a week.

It's amazing how my focus has changed, especially the last two years, it seemed as though I couldn't get off the treadmill when I'm at the gym.  When I headed to the gym, I run a few miles and stretch.  That's all I would do.  In fact, a few months back, one of the trainers at my gym, Charles, mentioned that I should start working out with him to get some weight training in.  I knew it would be a good idea, but at the time, I didn't want to mess up my training schedule I had for MCM.  And let's be honest, I didn't want to fork out the money either :)

As I began this new training cycle for Rock N Roll Half Marathon, I thought that maybe adding something new would be a good idea. I wasn't seeing the results I wanted in my body, so I figured talking to Charles wouldn't hurt.  As we talked, he shared with me his inspirational story of how he became a trainer and it really made me realized that he cares about the outcome of his clients and he believes in what he does.  It was nice to hear and see a trainer that was involved in his clients lives.  And honestly, what really impressed me is that I happened to mention something about long runs on Saturdays and he remembered that detail.  I know, very small, but I could tell he was committed to being successful in what he does.  Anyway, he told me about different options that I had for classes within the gym.  He mentioned a new Kettlebell Class that was small and offered a more one-on-one experience without breaking the bank.

I started the class almost a month ago and I LOVE IT!  Twice a week, I meet up with a few other people (always less than 5) and take an hour weigh lifting class.  The question that you probably want to know is what is a kettlebell?  These are kettle bells:

These ball size weights with a horn on top vary in range from 5lbs to 35lbs (at least at my gym) and offer a total body workout because of the focus of control.  They offer a wider range of motion than a dumbbell.  I have really learned to push myself and become comfortable with these exercises.  I look forward to going to class and feeling it for the next few days.  I never thought that weigh training would improve my running, but I am finding that it is the only thing I have changed in the last month and I am feeling stronger and faster than I was before.  Of course, I still enjoy the treadmill, but this is a great change a few times a week!  Thanks Charles!

Charles, posing with his kettlebells

Off to kettle bell class...hope it's another good workout!

A Much Needed Run

If you read my post from last night, you can tell that I am in a place in my life where I am figuring things out.  This morning I woke and just wanted to run.  No pressure, just run.  I have been putting a lot of pressure on myself recently and it has become a little unhealthy.  I wanted to run on trail that I have missed because it is out of my way, but I am really glad I made the hike.  This morning, I made the trek to Roosevelt Island where I jumped on the Mount Vernon Trail.

I have run this trail once before, over 2 years ago, but I remembered that it was peaceful and had a great view of Washington from across the Potomac River.  The only goal I had was to run for 30 mins and then turn around and run back.  As I began at Roosevelt Island I focused on just one foot in front of the other.  I felt strong.  As I ran, I looked over to left and saw Washington, it was a beautiful site on a beautiful day.

Views of Washington from the Mount Vernon Trail

Then as I looked over to my right, I realized something.  I was running near Arlington National Cemetery and also the finish line to Marine Corps Marathon.  These 2 places reminded me that there are so many things that I should be thankful for.  I need to remember that millions of people have fought for our freedom and have allowed me to be able to run every day and have helped me fulfill many of my goals without even realizing it.  It gave me a new perspective.  Why was I getting upset because I wasn't making my goal every time out?  It is so stupid, there is no reason why I should be getting upset.  The big picture is much more important.  As I continued to run, I was feeling great!  I ran to Reagan National Airport in 30 mins where I turned around and started heading back.  

Reagan National Airport - Turnaround Point

My last 30 mins I felt so strong.  It was the best run I had ever had.  I know to get to where I need to be it will take more than one run, but this is definitely a great starting point.  I ended up running 6.5 miles averaging a 9:28 mile.  I wasn't thinking about my run and I ran great.  This is what running is all about.

Confidence?

I know it has been a while since I have written a blog, but I have been really busy.  Between working, running, and trying to have some sort of life it has been difficult for me to get on here.  With all that time though, I have had a lot to think about.  This post is really going to put a lot out there and it is a bit scary for me, but I am not one to sugar coat, so not reason to sugar coat here.

For those of you who know me, you know I am 1-very open and 2-very hard on myself.  I am my own worst enemy, but I will be the first to tell you that.  So here goes nothing...If I look at myself from an outsiders perspective, I see a great person who has a lot of things going for her.  I have a successful career, lots of friends, treat people well, traveled, been successful in riding horses and running.  But if I look at myself in my own eyes, I haven't met my own standards...and that is hard.  I try not to compare myself to other people, but I do.  I try to look at where I have been and where I am now and see the huge gains, but I don't see as much growth as I wish were there.  I am constantly fighting with my own thoughts.

Running is a sport where the LARGE majority of people run for themselves, not to come in first place in the race or their age group.  People run to live healthy lives, to push themselves, to see improvement, but not always to be the best in the sport.  I run for all those reasons as well, but I want to be better.  I push myself to be better and recently it has been hard for me to understand why it isn't coming as fast for me as it is other people.  Don't get me wrong, I love running and everything that comes with it, I just want to see my improvement sooner than I am.

Last weekend I ran the Run Your Heart Out 5k in Reston.  It was cold, freezing in fact.  The temp was 23 degrees, but felt like 10.  There was snow on the ground, but in my head I wanted to PR.  I wanted to run faster than 28:10, my PR from my New Year's Day 5k.  As I ran my first mile, I was right on track to do awesome...I was running a 8:45 mile, but after the first mile marker I slipped on a wooden bridge covered with snow and it really shook me...a lot.  I slowed my pace to 9:45 for the next mile and then picked it during mile 3 to finish in 28:42.  I was really bummed out, but I know I shouldn't have been.  I know I should be thinking, that last summer, all I wanted was to finish a 5k in under 30 mins and I am doing that now, but unless I see constant improvement, I don't see myself as doing well.  With each race I expect to improve, but that doesn't always happen and I have to learn that.  It is really hard for me.

Run Your Heart Out 5k

With Amy, Jodi and Jess

Yesterday I skipped my long run of 12 miles to run another race, the GW Birthday Classic 10k in Alexandria.  I worked really hard this whole week to push myself and feel confident to beat my PR and previous time at this race last year (58:39).  I had my eye on running it in 55:00 or under.  I was confident that I could do it.  Yesterday morning as I headed to the start line, I decided that I wasn't going to focus on my watch and just run strong.  I figured if I needed to push it the last few miles I could.  As it turned out, I ran by feeling and I finished in 56:59...a PR by almost 2 mins.  I should have been ecstatic, but I wasn't.  I just kept thinking, why didn't I do better?  I know I could have pushed myself, but I didn't.  I know if I had I would have been able to make my 55:00 goal.  I can't run the race again, but I need to learn to be proud of where I have come.  Instead, I decided that since I didn't make my time goal, I should keep running to at least get my distance for the day.  So I headed to Burke Lake to finish 12 miles for the day.  It may or may not have been the right thing to do, but I needed to feel successful in some aspect of my running for the day.

I am well aware that I currently have the wrong focus with my running and it is so hard for me to switch my focus.  I read the following quote today:

After reading this I realized I need to read this EVERY DAY.  I am a great person and it is amazing that I have been able to overcome challenges in not just my running, but in life.  I need to be proud of me.  Although I will still focus on improving my running, I also need to focus on the sentence above that says "Be confident with who you are."  It won't happen overnight, but one day I will learn to find the confidence within.